October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. The commemorate, light a candle today, October 15, at 7:00 pm to remember those who have lost a beloved child before or after birth. I've met many women in the past couple of years who've lost infants or whose babies have been born just too soon.
My own loss happened very early on, approx. 10 weeks gestation. I don't think anyone but myself even remembers. It was the first time I got pregnant without medical intervention. It was a very planned and wanted baby conceived shortly after dh's birthday and due on FIL's birthday. Seemed meant to be.
But what was really meant to be was to find out a couple days past my birthday that the new little life had left so swiftly and to physically let go of the pregnancy just before Christmas. It was a subdued holiday and we spent the month of January that following year just hunkered down together.
But every Halloween I remember that one Halloween I was pregnant for such a short time. The month of December never passes that I don't recall what happened those few years ago. July passes and I recall that we could be celebrating an additional birthday. I see friend's children who were born around that time as we would have shared pg and I always wonder what my child would have been like. Would I have had a boy or girl? For some reason I think boy. What color hair and eyes? What type of personality and temperament?
And then I look at my beautiful daughter, Mia. If things were different she would not have been here and she's wonderful. It's so strange how life works out sometime. With my melancholy personality, I can't help some days to think how different things would be right now had that pregnancy gone to term but it wasn't meant to be. What's meant to be is what we have now and it's a full quiver! I think the Lord for my many blessings.
Please light a candle tonight at 7:00 to commemorate all the lives that were much too short.
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